Dying in front of me up in the air

It was the second time i experienced someone dying. The first time, a person jumped from the cologne cathedral. Years ago, i could feel and hear the bang it made when the body smashed into the ground. Now a passenger of my flight from Hong Kong to Frankfurt got some critical medical condition. My first impression of him i got was while we were filling the bin with our carry-on baggage. He was a solo traveller and already a bit old. He seemed to be nice and patient. I think he even smiled, because i performed some serious Tetris skills to get our stuff into the bin over the seats. He was definitely happy that i got him enough space for his bag.

After this, we ate our first meal of the 12 hours flight. And at some point i saw his head and left arm hanging over into the aisle from the seat in front of me. I thought he was just really tired. The flight attendant, who was checking him out visually, thought this too. Because our plane started after midnight. But hours later, i came back from the toilet and saw a lot of action around me. I realized, he is probably dead, because he was for a while like that.

At the check-in counter in the airport i got a seat at the end of the plane, next to my mother. They brought the body behind us, where enough space was available, right in front of the toilet and next to the kitchen. I could experience the whole thing, how they tried to get him back alive. But only his beer belly was still moving. And after they gave up, we got new seats, while we were still in the air, to make room for the professionals on the ground later. In the end, i got to fly for at least six hours with a dead person, literally close to heaven.

Watching seven seasons of MacGyver

In the past couple of days i binge-watched TV series “MacGyver”, and it made me feel happy from start to end. The theme song makes me smile even more. As a child born in 1986 i watched MacGyver as much as possible, just like “The A-Team”, but i never got to watch all 7 seasons. Later when i was older i rediscovered actor Richard Dean Anderson in “Stargate SG-1” and tried to watch all episodes too.

Back then i only got to see the translated version for the German audience. But now i enjoyed the original version of MacGyver. They started with the TV series over three decades ago, but many themes are still quite contemporary. Things like roboter, artificial intelligence or speech recognition were already part of episodes. This puts MacGyver almost in the science fiction category, because they were ahead of their time.

When i was young i wanted to be like secret agent “Angus MacGyver”, because he finds non-violent solutions and solves problems by making things out of ordinary objects, like duct tape and a swiss army knife. I never got as smart as he is, but i don’t have screenwriters working for me either. He and “The A-Team” influenced my view on justice a lot and teached me how to get things done too. I would be a different person without their existence.

The power of introverts

Earlier this month, i repaired my “iPod Photo 4th Gen” by replacing the dying battery. I got the new parts via eBay and followed a tutorial on iFixit to give it a second life. I bought this Apple iPod model over a decade ago. But at some point i got a new device through warranty, and never used it again. Because i decided to buy a “iPod Nano 4th Gen”, which is smaller and without a spinning hard drive inside. But the iPod Photo battery didn’t last, even without any use.

I tried a couple of audiobooks with my new old media player this month. But i’m quite annoyed by writers who are trying to make things longer than they need to be, just to sell more pages without useful content. But i liked “Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking” by Susan Cain, because i can agree and relate to many things she writes about: “At least one-third of the people we know are introverts. They are the ones who prefer listening to speaking; who innovate and create but dislike self-promotion; who favor working on their own over working in teams.”

Now i have two audiobooks on my to-do list: “The Three-Body Problem” and “The Dark Forest” by writer Cixin Liu. I didn’t found his third book “Death’s End” as audio version available to me. But it should be enough to satisfy my hunger for science fiction, at least for 36 hours. If i’m not tired enough at night, i like to listen to books or podcasts, because the time is wasted otherwise.

How to get her attention

I went a little bit crazy early this year. But later i found a more productive path for me, and created this personal blog instead, to get things sorted, for myself and everyone who might be interested. While i was slowly realizing that i’m wasting my time, i was still targeting to get her attention, by pushing up my website in Google results. Just in case she does some “egosurfing”. As of now i got me these positions by searching for:

That’s actually not too bad. I was not only aiming for her attention, but i also wanted to prove myself that i can still kick ass in terms of SEO, also known as “Search Engine Optimization”. It’s funny to see that some things don’t change too much. But people are trying to manage their footprint on the internet only with Youtube, Twitter, Instagram or Facebook, just because it’s the newest big thing. They don’t realize that none of these companies are sharing “link juice”, what makes them look like birds in gilded cages.

Your whole life from start to finish

In the past couple of days i watched quite a few movies, but not many of them made me think about it later. I just saw the movie “Arrival” with actress Amy Adams as Louise Banks, a linguist and mother. I can’t even summarize the story, it’s just that good. But at the end it’s about how the direction of a language shapes behavior and the perception of life, and going beyond beginnings and endings, because it’s limiting what we are capable of thinking.

The alien language is nonlinear, written in circular puffs of smoke, without a beginning or end. The beginning of a sentence contains already the information of the end, because they both exist at the same time. Most movies are told in a linear way, unlike “Arrival”, where future and past become one. This is why the story gets a little confusing, because our “Memory is a strange thing, bound by the order of time”. Another sentence i liked: “If you could see your whole life from start to finish, would you change things?”

Only a handful of songs are on my phone

When i was young i liked country and pop music a lot. It gave me comfort and hope when i was sad and lost. But when i got older i realized there is nothing new coming anymore. Sometimes there is a song popping up i find interesting enough to play it on repeat for a while, and let it absorb all the feelings and thoughts i have at the moment, like a temporary distraction. But at the end i still have the same music on my phone, some of them are with me since many years, because it’s familiar and soothing:

  • Song “On the Nature of Daylight” by Max Richter, 2004
  • Song “Ashes Of My Paradise” by Kelly Sweet, 2012
  • Song “I Was a Fool” by Tegan and Sara, 2013
  • Songs “That would be enough” & “Burn” by Phillipa Soo, 2015
  • Album “The Corrs Unplugged” by The Corrs, 1999
  • Album “Vivaldi: The Four Seasons” by Janine Jansen, 2005
  • Album “Tchaikovsky: Violin Concerto” by Janine Jansen, 2008

The first time i heard “I Was a Fool” by Tegan and Sara was in London, while i was eating breakfast at McDonalds. When i noticed the music from their speakers, i immediately took my phone out to record a piece of it, so i could download the song later. The first time i heard “Tchaikovsky: Violin Concerto” was in the movie “Le Concert” with actress Mélanie Laurent as Anne-Marie Jacquet. I really liked that movie and it made me cry a little too.

The Lighthouse Technique

I watch most videos at 1.3x speed, because life on earth is short, and many scenes are longer than they need to be. In the past couple of days i binge-watched TV series Arrow, Gotham and Supergirl. I like Willa Holland as Thea Queen and Stephen Amell as Oliver Queen. In “Arrow” they are siblings who are trying to right the wrongs and save the city from the crime.

When i was young i loved the Batman character, because he is a real human with a lot of anger towards everything and nothing, just like me, but with a lot of expensive tools to get things done. This is why i enjoyed TV series “Gotham” with a young Bruce Wayne slowly becoming the Batman from my childhood. The cast is doing a great job in portraying a modern version of the Batman story.

The first time i got introduced to the franchise was through Christopher Reeve as Superman over two decades ago. I love Calista Flockhart since i watched her in “Ally McBeal” and she is back again in the TV series “Supergirl” as Cat Grant. Together with Melissa Benoist as Kara Zor-El she is trying to change the world and protect the planet.

I do not fully agree with Cat, because if you want something just go for it, but her choice of words is funny nonetheless: “If you must, read my 1998 guide to finding love entitled The Lighthouse Technique: Shine Your Light and Let Him Come to You. And before you know it, he’ll be docked in your port. Not my best work but it did get me a spot on Oprah.”

Why i was never in a hair salon

My mother has always cut my hair, with only scissors and a comb, which is why i never was in a hair salon. And since late 2014 i cut it myself, because i got a electric hair cutter with an adjustable comb for different lengths, the Philips Norelco 7100 Hair Clipper. It’s convenient and i have never known anything else. And when i look at the hair salon prices, it is totally worth investing in a electric hair cutter, at least for men with short hair. The only thing that makes trouble is the cleaning. All the hair on the floor requires a vacuum cleaner, and a bit of manual work around the bathtub drain.

Time travelling in june 2017

In the last couple of days i binge-watched three time-related TV series i liked: Frequency, Wayward Pines and Timeless. The first two shows are not directly about time travel, and rather more about manipulating history, or fast-forwarding it. “Frequency” tells the story of a detective in 2016 who discovers that she can speak to her deceased father in 1996 via his old ham radio. She tries to save his life, but this changes the present unpredictably.

“Wayward Pines” is about people who go to sleep for 2000 years to survive the “abbies”. A doctor predicted that humans will evolve through a series of genetic mutations. And he wants to skip this violent time period, and chooses people with special qualities to rebuild mankind after they have woken up.

In “Timeless” a time machine gets stolen. And a history professor, a soldier and an engineer are trying to get it back. But the thief wants to rewrite American history. And they learn that each of them are part of a much bigger plan by a mysterious organization that funded the development.

I watched the TV series “Outlander” too, but i skipped many parts, because it didn’t kept me interested enough. I like actress Caitriona Balfe as Claire Randall, a nurse in 1945, who time-travels back to Scotland in 1743. The scenery, the costumes and the story are not that bad, but i’m just not in the mood for the eighteenth century.

Everyone dies alone

Two days ago i decided to get me a BitTorrent client “in the cloud” for a month again, just like last year. This way i can catch up with all the shows and movies i missed. Because the Amazon Prime Video Catalog is quite limited, and the cost of all series and movies would be too high otherwise.

I just saw the last episodes of the TV series “Person of Interest” and it made me cry. I watched it since 2011 and i love it, especially actress Amy Acker as “Root” and actor Michael Emerson as “Harold Finch”. But i really like all characters in team “The Machine”. Because they make it complete. The story is about trust, purpose and friendship, wrapped in a contemporary battle between good and evil.

I can relate to Root and Harold, because i’m deep into technology as much as they are, and i like both of their views on the world. I enjoy Person of Interest because of the ideas, and they keep it interesting with a lot of care. There is not much more to ask for.

I’m going to pick the final words i liked: “Everyone dies alone. But if you mean something to someone, if you help someone, or love someone, if even a single person remembers you, then maybe you never really die. And maybe it isn’t the end at all.”