After months of having a crush on Jessica Clements, i stopped editing her photos on Instagram and unsubscribed from her channels on YouTube. It was still a fun routine to add a twist to her photos. Almost like having a relationship with her for a couple of minutes a day, just without the interaction.
But i’m a rational person, i know when time is wasted, and there is no chance that we are getting together. She is a twenty-three years old upcoming super-model in New York, living a dream, and i’m a thirty years old poor artist in Germany, scratching the universe.
Another reason for me to quit Jessica Clements was that she is not a real person. She creates makeup, beauty and fashion content for YouTube. At some point you realize that she is good at making you fall in love with her, like an actress in a hollywood movie. She is a professional, unlike what others think about her. The awkward deer thing she does just makes people want to watch her videos.
While writing this text, i researched different levels of relationships: Acquaintanceship, Companionship, Friendship, Committed Friendship, Primary Friendship, and Life Partner. Jessica Clements is not even someone i would bump into in the course of daily life.
Patrick Swayze and Stacy Widelitz wrote a nice song: “She leads me through moonlight, only to burn me with the sun. She’s taken my heart, but she doesn’t know what she’s done. (..) Just a fool to believe, I have anything she needs. She’s like the wind. I look in the mirror, and all I see, Is a young old man, with only a dream.”